Thanks x 10!

"The most pleasant and useful persons are . . .

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. . . those who leave some of the problems of the universe for God to worry about." -Don Marquis
I'm thankful for:

the fact that I now know without a doubt that I do get post-partum depression after having my babies and that I don't have it anymore
conviction from my bible study that love is not primarily a feeling but an action
changes coming our way to hopefully allow Jeff to be with us more
a very successful day homeschooling today
being consistently patient and loving today
going to the grocery store without 3 small children tagging along
an opportunity to celebrate Christmas my family in just over a month
getting up early this morning and getting a good exercise in
one night break from putting the kids to bed
our church and leadership

Count your blessings

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I'm thankful for:

a beautiful day at the park on Monday
Clara saying "Thank you" and when I asked what for she said "Thank you for taking me to bible study" completely unprompted. WOW!
3 of us having a complete meltdown in the car on the way home from bible study. Oh, it was bad . . . but the payoff was when I asked the kids how they felt when I yelled at them Clara said "You weren't listening to God". She is starting to get it!
celebrating God's and each other's forgiveness in a spontaneous trip to Paradise Bakery
continued reminders of how wonderful my husband and marriage really are
the lessons God is teaching me (oh so painful!) in how not to act.
a good day today of not losing my temper
booking the trip to spend Christmas in Virginia
Mary Kay playing Chutes & Ladders and Candyland with the kids
spending time teaching Christian today without getting irritated. Baby steps.

"As people spin faster and faster in the pursuit of merely personal happiness . . .

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. . . they become exhausted in the futile effort of chasing themselves." -Andrew Delbanco
I'm thankful for:

finding that I no longer resent that I am the one who has to take the trash out each time
learning for certain that Thomas is allergic to soy
the weather finally cooling down a little
my Mom coming out here last week. I don't think I loaded the dishwasher once!
a great trip to San Diego . . . seeing the joy on their faces as they watched Shamu jump out of the water, Jeff helping them overcome the fear of the ocean, seeing family I hadn't seen for years, . . . I could keep going!
getting back into an early morning rhythm so I can have some personal quiet time before starting the day
Christian and Clara playing nicely together
not totally losing my mind at my children in spite of the exhausting schedule we've been keeping
hope that I will be able to conquer everything I need to with the kids, the house, the schoolwork, etc as I get into the rhythm
a quiet moment to reflect on thankfulness while the kids play outside

In Christ alone, my hope is found . . .

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. . . firm through the fiercest drought and storm. -Keith Getty & Stuart Townend
I'm thankful for:

sweet baby Thomas turning 1 today!
an unexpected call from Christian's preschool about a Mon/Wed afternoon class - it may be exactly what he needs.
coming out after tucking Clara and Thomas into bed and finding Christian reading himself a story without my asking him to
being able to join Jeff on a business trip last week to Las Vegas
that the 5 of us stuck in a one bed hotel room turned out great instead of as miserable as it seemed like it would
being able to see my cousin Jennifer and her daughters while we were there

Clara and Jordan
being able to do some fun things with the kids while in Vegas. We bowled, went to the Monterey Bay Shark Reef, ate gelato and watched the fountains at the Bellagio.
my cousin Jeanette giving birth to a healthy baby boy yesterday!
Christian saying he wants to be like Jesus
having the great support of family and friends

Love never fails.

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-1 Corinthians 13:8a
I'm thankful for:

spending lots of time reading with the kids
Christian's behavior and mouth significantly improving
Thomas adjusting to his new diet and drinking water better
chasing the kids around the house and working on "projects" together
the stability of Jeff's job in this awful market
being able to have some good time with Jeff's family and celebrating Andrew's 8th birthday
how much the kids adore their cousins
seeing Clara hugging Christian and telling him that she loves him
Christian enthusiasm to read the bible, sing hymns and memorize verses since we implemented a morning and dinner worship time
Christian is reading!!!

For by grace you have been saved through faith.

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. . . And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God. -Ephesians 2:8
I'm thankful for:

a week with my sister out here, giving the kids and myself company & relief
my sister spending a lot of one on one time with the kids
the vast growth my sister and I have made in our relationship together through the last several years
my sister's offer and willingness to watch the kids for 24 hours while Jeff and I got a night away
a wonderful night away of relaxation and stress free with Jeff at the WigWam
the new foods I'm able to eat now! Yummmm! Still trying valiantly not to go overboard.
potting more herbs with the kids
Thomas top 4 teeth all coming in at once - at least he'll only suffer once for four.
having a break before Jeff's trip this whole week
the kids desire to help me clean and finding some chores that they can do to help

Fathers, do not provoke your children to anger . . .

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. . . but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord. -Ephesians 6:4
I'm thankful for:

the kids being able to spend such quality time with their grandma & grandpa
the homeschool conference. I'm still not sure what we'll do in the future, but it really gave me some good ideas to consider and refreshed my parenting strategies
talking nicely with the kids instead of losing my temper the last few days
seeing progress in Christian's disobedience the last few days
the bittersweet act of weaning Thomas
eating foods I haven't eaten in 6 months! Pizza, peanut butter, chocolate!
refocusing for the upcoming week
the study our church is doing on the 10 commandments
Thomas starting to get better at drinking from a cup
having a great time with our college/young adult group. What

After such an awful day yesterday . . .

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. . . filled with yelling, crying, bad talk and angry hearts I thought it best to work on my thankful list today.
I'm thankful for:

a new start to every day
going to bed early enough last night to work out this morning
the hugs and kisses I'm greeted with to start my day
being amused by things my children say
a new idea . . . to create a blog of funny things my kids say
for Tom & Mary Kay coming up to watch the kids while I go to a homeschool conference tomorrow and Saturday
tickle time and putting puzzles together on the floor with all 3 kids
Thomas amazing improvement sleeping and eating this week
not losing my temper today
Jeff coming home tonight

I'm going to take a break from updating the blog daily;

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. . . it has served me well for the last 6 months and now I can confidently say that I've felt a permanent impact on my life. I am thankful that God gave me the wisdom to see this light out of depression, and to help me to rely on Him above myself. I wish I could say that now I've figured out how to turn to God first above myself, but with time I pray I can say that more often.

I will update the blog as I see the need to do so, particularly if I find myself reverting back to a discontented attitude or on particularly joyful or challenging days. This does not mean that everything in life is going smoothly, or that I've learned how to enjoy every day, but I'm finding more and more ways to deal with the challenges and to appreciate my life more. I pray if anyone happens upon this blog that they can be inspired to look beyond their own everyday and see (sometimes hidden) within each day and situation all the wonderful things that it is filled with.

I'm thankful for:

hearing Christian tell Clara she's his best friend
Clara having a dry pullup this morning
Thomas hopefully turning a new leaf and waking happy and playful in his crib the last few mornings
Thomas clearly feeling better and less itchy
enjoying a nice lunch with my friend Taun
getting my passport photo taken in the hopes Jeff and I can take a nice trip to Mexico later this year
Clara putting her arms around me and telling me she loves me
hopefully the last time Thomas gets hives from something I ate
Christian saying I'm going to eat dirt, because at least it showed he has been paying attention to the Genesis 3 readings we did last week
this blog and how well it has served me for the last 168 faithful days

In my distress I called to the LORD, and he answered me.

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. . . From the depths of the grave I called for help, and you listened to my cry. -Jonah 2:1b
I'm thankful for:

sleeping in until 7am - and the kids let us!
Thomas eating his breakfast willingly and well this morning
Thomas getting the hang of the sippy cup a little bit better at lunch
Thomas' skin looking better than it has in a month and him clearly feeling better
Jeff taking each Christian and then Clara out with him by themselves
a "day off" from the norm
my dad taking an interest in his grandkids; sending a card to the kids and calling them
a friend who confides in me and asks thought-provoking spiritual questions. What an honor!
being able to share wisdom and experience with another mom. Never thought I'd be on this end!
alone time with each of my kids

Then the LORD God made a woman from . . .

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. . . the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. -Genesis 2:22
I'm thankful for:

10 amazing years married to the love of my life
that I love Jeff and he loves me more even than the day we got married
thinking back on 10 years of love, life and family
attempting to focus us all on using our words in a Godly way
Dr. Mitra telling me I can wean Thomas to rice milk whenever I want!!!
getting Jeff's old box of Lego's out for the kids for the first time
dropping Thomas' lunch feeding. He did not take the cup well, but I could tell he liked the taste of the rice milk and did not have any issue not nursing from me.
trying out making sugar cookies w/o eggs or butter. Not so sure about these, but it was good to try something new.
the beautiful roses Jeff brought home
enjoying a date at home including dinner and a movie with Jeff

So God created man in his own image,

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. . . in the image of God he created him;
male and female he created them. -Genesis 1:27
I'm thankful for:

a good start to the morning
watching Clara and Thomas playing while I snuggled with Christian on the rocking chair
Thomas taking a little nap at least
making silly paper hats with the kids
making at least some progress in getting my sister to fly out here
thinking back on what I was doing or feeling 10 years ago today
the hope that maybe I can wean Thomas sooner than I thought and take a trip with Jeff somewhere special???
conviction of how important our speech is from War of Words (Paul Tripp)
Clara understanding and loving playing "Simon Says"
Thomas going to sleep tonight sans the hour+ of crying

"Amazing grace, how sweet the sound . . .

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. . . that saved a wretch like me." -John Newton
I'm thankful for:

another productive morning
encouraging comments from two friends regarding parenting
dropping the late night feeding for Thomas and he sleeps just as long
making carrot soup with the kids from the Carrot Soup book
swimming at the Hahne's in spite of canceled swim lessons
Christian bobbing under the water and trying to hold his breath
Clara loving to jump into the water with me
getting invited to dinner at the Hahne's
trying ribs for maybe? the first time in my life and liking them
overhearing Christian singing Amazing Grace in his bed tonight

"In faith there is enough light for those who want to believe and . . .

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. . . enough shadows to blind those who don't." -Blaise Pascal
I'm thankful for:

waking up early enough to enjoy some quiet time
having a very productive day
making "telephones" using plastic cups with the kids
the smell of clean sheets, pillows, comforters. So fresh!
Josh's birthday. I'm thankful for a good friend and great pastor!
the little "mirrors" that my children are. It is humbling but at least it helps motivate me to be better.
Clara announcing that she loves Daddy several times today - without him being here
getting the photo book finished . . . just in time!
Jeff consoling Thomas tonight and giving me a break
Jeff enjoying the marinade on the chicken I made. Small victories.

"He who has faith has . . .

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. . . an inward reservoir of courage, hope, confidence, calmness, and assuring trust that all will come out well - even though to the world it may appear to come out most badly." -B.C. Forbes
I'm thankful for:

getting up at 5am as I'd hoped and then running for 30 minutes.
a new personal best time: 3.28 miles in 29'27". I ran my second mile in 8'44"
Clara was pretty good at the store today!
actually having to wake Thomas up from his morning and afternoon naps
Chuck, our Shea home service rep, who pulled strings to get the kids a/c flow to their rooms looked at tomorrow
Thomas' new trick of covering his mouth with his hand while making noise
Jeff coming home early from Tucson
Thomas eating asparagus, salmon and rolls with no hives! He LOVED it!
hearing a friend share kind words about her husband
that I can turn to my Lord and Savior for help and not alcohol or drugs as I've seen so many spiral down. May I never forget that.

"For the love of money is a root of . . .

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. . . all kinds of evil." 1 Timothy: 6:10a
I'm thankful for:

Christian reading Dr. Seuss The Foot Book. The first real book he's read!
Thomas first time eating pancakes! Yummmmm!
a desire to be good stewards of our money and working on reconciling our bank accounts
Christian and Clara memorizing Phil 4:13 and the first verse of Amazing Grace
Thomas playing so nicely by himself
this silence punishment for bad talking. So much nicer than hearing the whining, griping, bad mouthing, back talking
Christian wanting to be an artist in spite of me finding it a challenge to organize arts and crafts for them to do
planning for the week ahead
Clara saying "Thomas is my friend"
working on the photo book for last year. I can't believe how much the kids have changed in a year!

"How often we fail to realize our good fortune in . . .

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. . . living in a country where happiness is more than a lack of tragedy." -Paul Sweeney
I'm thankful for:

living in a free country
celebrating our country's birthday
Thomas sleeping longer today and taking 2 naps!
Jeff taking the kids on a hike
School House Rocks! Classic!
making Independence Day parfaits with the kids
reconnecting with old friends
finishing painting the bedroom
getting some pictures hung tonight
Jeff spending so much time with the kids today so I could finish painting the bedroom

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing,

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. . . but in rising up every time we fail." -Ralph Waldo Emerson
I'm thankful for:

having Jeff home today
a very spontaneous trip (we ran out the door in 10 minutes) to Cerreta's Candy Company
Jeff being so kind as to take me to Sprout's so I could buy some chocolate that does not have milk in it
a lazy day. I had hoped for more productivity, but I think I needed this.
Clara hugging Thomas and telling him she loves him
potting our herbs with the kids
being right there to scoop Thomas out when he slipped and went under in the tub
the beautiful cloud formations this evening
mmmm. Eating chocolate with a glass of wine to end the evening.
Jeff still has 2 days off!

"Perseverance is the hard work you do after . . .

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. . . you get tired of doing the hard work you already did." -Newt Gingrich
I'm thankful for:

spending a terrific day at the Hahne's
surviving parenting on a few hours of sleep
having a friend that I can share hours of conversation with, who takes great care of me and my family, who accepts my eccentricities, and most of all, who shares a love of the Lord
all 6 of our children getting along so well for such a long time
a nice swim in the pool and my children getting braver with each day
Christian being so kind as to play quietly while I took a nap
Jeff making it home before the kids bedtime and him playing with them for a little while before he fell asleep
yummy smell of swordfish burgers - something new to try
the kids going to bed fairly willingly
Jeff has the day off tomorrow for July 4. What a blessing!

"What is a friend?

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. . . A single soul dwelling in two bodies." -Aristotle
I'm thankful for:

that pesky fly waking me up again at 5:30. I was able to get up and do all my morning goals.
this overcast day
getting new books to read at the library
Christian sticking up for his sister when I was not treating her as nicely as I should
each of our little seeds sprouting . . . some even ready to replant!
reading time with Christian while the littles were sleeping . . . and he didn't beg me to play on Starfall
Melissa watching the C's for me while I went grocery shopping
Pei Wei for dinner plus a night off from cooking. Yummm!
sharing the evening playing games and enjoying the company of friends
our impromptu sleepover going well

"I do not believe in God, for that implies an effort of the will -

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. . . I see God everywhere!" -Jean Favre
I'm thankful for:

the annoying fly waking me up, else I'd probably have gotten woken by a small child and been really irritated with them
spending time last night working on my art for the first time in a long time
an unexpected rain last night
seeing the "children" in the family of quail that keeps visiting our home growing up!
keeping my cool in spite of lack of sleep and a really grumpy 2 year old
Christian staying in his reading rest the last few days
Christian memorizing Philippians 4:13 and the kids making an attempt to sing Amazing Grace with me
Christian & Clara being brave in swim lessons
Christian answering "all of it" when I asked him what he liked best about swim lessons
laying Thomas down for the evening and he didn't cry when I put him in the crib

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge,

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. . . but fools despise wisdom and discipline. -Proverbs 1:7
I'm thankful for:

getting up early enough to get a good workout in, fold laundry, read my bible, eat breakfast, shower. Nice.
the happy hearts of my children today
a very productive morning; getting into a rhythm
praying praises to God while rocking Thomas this morning. A unique opportunity amidst a typical day without a lot of quiet time.
baking eggless, dairyless banana bread with the kids. The first yummy treat I've had in a long time!
spending some quality time with Christian
Thomas peaceful sleep this afternoon
silly things the kids do like dressing up in jackets & pretending there is a snowstorm outside
a nice, long phone call with Mom & Dad while the kids played in their room
my cousin Melisa finding out she's having a girl!

And pray in the Spirit . . .

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. . . on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. -Ephesians 6:18a
I'm thankful for:

the kids sleeping a little longer than usual so we could catch up on the sleep we missed last night
Thomas and I trying pancakes this morning - so far he's fine
getting our furniture moved back in our bedroom. The painting is 2/3 done!
that Jeff has a job in these tough economic times
a super long nap today. Thanks Jeff!
seeing some progress in the new discipline strategy with Christian's behavior
getting the house and kitchen in order before the start of the work week
Christian joining me on some errands - it's good for us both to spend quality alone time together
the weekend being so rejuvenating.
Jeff. I love him so much more than I could ever put into writing. Frankly, if nothing else, he could make each item of my top ten list each day . . . even on a bad day.

"I cannot imagine how the clockwork of the universe can exist without . . .

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. . . a clockmaker." -Voltaire
I'm thankful for:

a new personal best time running the 5k
not getting bit by the snake I almost ran over (in all fairness, in hindsight I think he may have been dead)
Thomas' happy squeaks when he woke this morning
breakfast time with my Aunt Esther
Kylah coming over to play and help with the kids
Clara giving me a big hug, huge kiss and telling me she loves me before her nap time today
Jesse R's miraculous recovery from myocarditis
Christian not having any major meltdowns today
Jeff giving the kids baths, dinner and ready for bed
starting on getting our bedroom painted and Jeff helping me get to a good stopping point

"Whenever I see sunbeams coming through clouds, it always looks to me like God shining himself down onto us.

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. . . The thing about sunbeams is they're always there even though we can't always see them. Same with God." -Adeline Cullen Ray
I'm thankful for:

different ideas for new discipline in dealing with Christian's negative mouth. I hope it helps.
Benadryl helping Thomas
Thomas falling asleep snuggling the monster
Christian counting to 150 without any help from me. His little mind never quits.
Thomas' new skill of clapping
the fun all the kids had together with the Hahne's kids
Josh and Melissa being able to go out on a golf date together
trying out a new schedule on Thomas. I hope this is going to make bedtime much easier!
little Miss Mary being so comfortable here with us
the end of the work week

"I would rather walk with God in the dark than . . .

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. . . go alone in the light." -Mary Gardiner Brainard
I'm thankful for:

seeing a family of quail in our backyard this morning - the babies were so tiny!
getting out of the funk pretty quickly this morning
cloudy windy day. I know it's hot outside, but it looks like a day to drink hot tea and read books on the couch
nice phone call with my Aunt Marcie
letting the house go and trying not to be too concerned about it
really truly desiring to glorify God and not control my children. Oh, so very hard.
it actually rained today!
being able to celebrate Cody Bates' first birthday with friends!
Thomas going to sleep effortlessly tonight
Clara's tender heart

"God saw all that he had made and it was very good."

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-Genesis 1:31
I'm thankful for:

inspiration from others of things to teach my children
a reasonably good trip to the store with the kids
Christian and Clara doing "Hidden Pictures" together without my prompting
talking myself back into reality. Meaning, there are times I see other mom's or read people's blogs and I forget that their lives are not as perfect as they seem on the outside
being a lot more easy going about the usual nuisances in child-rearing
Uncle Phil offering for us to stay with them when we visit CA next month
Melissa taking the C's for me while I went shopping
buying a size 4 at Old Navy today. I never thought that would be a size I'd see again on me in my lifetime!
Christian saying he loves Clara as one of his prayers
Jeff coming home later tonight

"In the Christian life it is important to understand that our highest success is not measured by the effect we have upon others,

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. . . but strictly by our obedience to God." -http://www.familyministries.com/HS_Crisis.htm
I'm thankful for:

a nearly perfect morning. Got up early, exercised, read my bible, showered, ate . . . all before the kids got up!
getting my morning chores done early
making homemade popcorn with the kids
talking with friends can help me get through the grumps (when the kids are resting or occupied)
reading refreshing ideas on why to be creative with the kids
the kid's first swim lesson. Christian was so much braver than I expected!
encouraging the kids and trying to be uplifting to them about even the little accomplishments
Clara telling me I need to put on my happy face when I'm getting upset
Jeff explaining Thomas is "special needs" and that we need to treat him that way in regards to helping him sleep. Helped me to have perspective and not be discouraged that he needs to be comforted asleep. I suppose we'll break whatever habits he's created after we're through this mess.
feeling the pull in not so subtle ways to work on my art and stop pushing it aside for everything else. (chapter I read last night on the importance of creativity, blog I read today about being a faithful steward of my time to devote to creativity, friend posting new photos of artworks in progress on FB). Ah, I want so much to do this but it just seems so hard to fit it in right now. I must push myself beyond what I think I can do. It worked with the chore list, nightly laundry. I shouldn't be discouraged. I know it can be done. Will plan for working it in.
*Make that one more. After posting, I ran across a note a friend put on his FB page about "Art, Faith, and Humanity. . .to engage the culture". Just knock me on the head with a 2x4 next time.

"If God asks that you bend, bend and do not complain.

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. . . He is making you more flexible, and for this be thankful." -Meriel Stelliger
I'm thankful for:

Clara doing a GREAT job in her big girl bed last night
Christian H. and Mary coming to hang out at our house this morning. Fun for everyone!
the kids all getting along so well
getting half of my chores done despite taking care of 5 little ones
this homemade microwave popcorn that my friend told me about. Yummy and healthy and cheap!
becoming a little bit more "go with the flow" about life
outdoor windex - that stuff worked amazingly well on the caked on kid prints of our sliding glass door!
Jeff being home 2 weeks. It makes this weeks trip that much easier to bear.
a quiet evening once I got Thomas to sleep
working towards planning a trip to join Jeff in San Diego

"Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead,

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. . . bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord." -Ephesians 6:4
I'm thankful for:

my wonderful husband who is the biggest blessing to our family and the best father I could imagine for my children
having a day to celebrate my husband, our fathers, and all the other great dad's in our lives
Christian not cutting his foot when the sugar container fell and broke on his foot
Clara going back into her big girl bed today. I hope this time it is for good!
the sermon this morning challenging me for more consistent parenting
desire for better discipline strategies, and not being complacent
reorganizing my pantry
finding some energy to clean up the kitchen before bed
Jeff's selflessness
after an hour of screaming Thomas finally went to sleep without me holding him. I know we can do this!

"In him you were also circumcised, in the putting off of the sinful nature . . .

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. . . not with a circumcision done by the hands of men but with the circumcision done by Christ, having been buried with him in baptism and raised with him through your faith in the power of God, who raised him from the dead." -Colossians 2:11-12
I'm thankful for:

Grandma reading books, playing games and generally spoiling the kids with her time today
Jeff and Tom getting a lot done around the house
getting paint for our bedroom at the store. I can't wait to give it a try!
Thomas miracle nap this morning and skin looking much better
Mary Kay emptying the dishwasher. Sometimes it truly is the little things.
God using Christian's angry heart to grow me in so many ways
sharing in D's baptism. What a huge blessing to be a part of that moment!
sharing that special moment with some old friends
children in bed for the night - better late than never!
mmm! Strawberry sorbet!

"Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. . . .

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. . . That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand." -Emily Kimbrough
I'm thankful for:

Christian and Clara including Thomas in their play time
Christian and Clara playing so nicely with new friends
great conversations with new friends
finally looking into the niche for one last quote
Thomas being ok after Clara feeding him cottage cheese today
the sheer excitement from the kids in anticipation of seeing their grandma & grandpa
Tom & Mary Kay coming to visit
the photos the kids had done with their cousins and how fun that was
having people around to distract me from the nightly chaos
excitement for D' who's getting baptized tomorrow! Praise Jesus!

For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord.

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Live as children of light -Ephesians 5:8
I'm thankful for:

Clara sat on the big potty all by herself and on her own initiative today. Hurray!
Thomas hasn't had hives for weeks until today. It does really give me hope! (later read that McDonald's uses wheat and milk as part of their ingredients)
at least the bad customer service at Lowe's allowed me to not buy my paint today and so I can later use the coupon I forgot to bring
Christian finishing the whole Learn to Read section on Starfall.com and has been reading signs correctly, like zoo and exit!
planting daisy seeds with the kids
playing wrestle
Thomas allowing me to read on the couch during what should have been his naptime
the great blessing of Jeff being around the last few weeks
Jeff being home in time for dinner and bringing dinner home. Yummm, Pei Wei!
2 good weeks following 2 horrific weeks. Thank God for the knowledge that I can have good days and even good weeks!

"The belly rules the mind." -Spanish Proverb

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I'm thankful for:

4 mile run this morning averaging 9m 15s/mile! Wooohooo!
seeing a beautiful sunrise, quail, coyote, rabbits and getting sprinkled on during my run
trying to eat even healthier - less sweets at least
hydrating more and feeling better because of it
Thomas temperament, especially when he's not hungry or sleepy
Christian accepting his punishment without a fight when he went to a long timeout after hitting me
Clara wanting to be a good girl and doing a good job in her bed, even though she has a hard time actually pulling it off
challenged to know more of my bible to help guide those in need
Jeff's total love and compassion for the kids under all circumstances. *sigh*. He gives me something to strive for.
my kids. They drive me nuts a lot of the time but I truly love each of them!

"There is one thing more exasperating than a wife who can cook and won't,

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. . . and that's a wife who can't cook and will." -Robert Frost
I'm thankful for:

being blessed to be able to actually witness a friend's faith grow
literally running into a neighbor friend on my run this morning and then running the rest of the way together, sharing the exercise and company
being more proactive about sending the kids to their room when they're whiny and misbehaving rather than letting it continue and allowing it to get to me
Christian's comedic timing
forgiving myself after I blew up today rather than dwelling on it and letting it escalate into an even grumpier me
Christian and Clara loving each other and playing well together
Jeff's chest x-ray "seeming to be normal"
a desire to continually grow and improve
working to not be hard on myself for less productivity today
keeping cool with Christian's bad temper and meltdowns

"One family and the children of that family can do . . .

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. . . marvelous things to affect the world or devastating things to destroy it." -Edith Schaeffer What is a Family?
I'm thankful for:

talking to myself about how to handle each situation before losing my cool or getting testy (don't worry, I'm not talking to myself out loud)
a very productive morning
convincing myself not to be lazy but to push through
Thomas keeping the gloves on this afternoon
Clara and Christian being better behaved
Thomas following the C's around the house all day
playing Memory with Christian and Clara and they both understood how to play it correctly!
Thomas signing Mommy and saying "Dada"
popsicles for the kids
reading lots of stories today

"There's nothing that can help you understand your beliefs more than . . .

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. . . trying to explain them to an inquisitive child." -Frank A. Clark
I'm thankful for:

Thomas eczema looking a little better after his bath today
visiting Fellowship of Grace for the first time in a long time
catching up with our "old" church family
these little "pep talks" I've been giving to myself lately to help me not get angry at the kids
taking time to read for a few minutes after getting home from church
Thomas eating real food and loving it more!
sparkling clean and polished counters
Christian counting to 100 at dinner
hearing the kids make each other laugh
our college ministry - they are such a blessing to us!

". . . someone in a relationship needs to consider the family as . . .

2009-06-13T20:59:00.000-07:00

. . . a career, a project, serious enough to be willing to be the one to 'scramble up over jagged rocks to feed the birds, so that they won't become extinct'". -Edith Schaeffer in What is a Family
I'm thankful for:

perspective of my job being to champion our family
finally making the move and buying paint for the kid's bathroom
managing taping off and painting part of the kid's bathroom between naps and snack time until Jeff came home when I could finish it
Christian being able to see his friend Tyler today
my friend D' and she celebrates her birthday today
the paint in the bathroom looks good! (albeit a little brighter than I was looking for)
keeping my cool for a few days in a row
Thomas trying so hard to keep up with the kids
Thomas desiring to eat real food
Christian and Clara treating each other with more love and respect (likely reflective of Mom's better behavior this week)

Be kind and compassionate to one another . . .

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. . . forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
I'm thankful for:

the book of Ephesians helping me to refocus
not being grumpy in spite of little sleep
little pep talks helping me to keep my cool
another good day without losing my temper
Clara taking a good nap since she did not sleep much last night
Clara's croupy cough gone this morning
a good talk with Josh giving perspective and encouragement
Thomas pulling up now on everything and taking it like a champ when he falls down
Christian working so hard at learning how to read and wanting me to read books to him all day
Christian's prayer tonight for me to play with him. A wake-up call to double check my priorities.

But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it.

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-Ephesians 4:7
I'm thankful for:

Jeff helping with Clara in the middle of the night last night
being so productively clean this week
the kids behaving nicely
me behaving nicely and not getting upset so easily
being more patient with Christian during his reading time
a miraculous day without any mommy meltdowns and the kids behavior reflecting how nice mommy was
getting new books at the library
taking the kids to McDonald's, which I almost never do. They, of course, had a blast!
Thomas enjoying bath with the older kids now so much
feeling some nice harmony in my life today and the hope it gives me that one day it could stay this way

Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.

2009-06-10T21:41:00.000-07:00

Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you. -Ephesians 4:31-32
I'm thankful for:

God's word to help guide me along the path of righteousness
recommendation from a friend on the book What is a Family by Edith Schaeffer. I'm only 1 chapter in, but it's got my attention.
Thomas looked right at me and said "Mama"! (and not just once, either!)
Christian's incessant questions. It can be a little overwhelming the constant barrage of questions, but I love how his mind works!
Thomas wanting to join in on the fun of wrestling with Daddy and kids
Jeff's ability to help me see what I'm missing sometimes
getting some things put up around the house. 6 months after the move and we're finally starting to move in
great friends - that is an area I am truly blessed!
Thomas falling asleep without me holding him tonight. It wasn't easy, but he did it this time!
my new daytimer because I AM getting more accomplished!

Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.

2009-06-09T21:53:00.009-07:00

Ephesians 4:2
I'm thankful for:

another productive day
better mental stability this week
handling melt-downs and disobedience with better love and kindness
Jeff being home this week - maybe that's why I'm handling life better
having the Hahne kids over - what fun for the kids!
being able to be a confidant to a friend
a nice dinner with Taun
enjoying time out with adult conversation and a break away from screaming kids
a great start to the week
Thomas eating and sleeping well for Jeff tonight

I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being,

2009-06-08T09:48:00.007-07:00

. . . so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. -Ephesians 3:16-17a
I'm thankful for:

a good trip to the store with the kids
getting the kids a treat (donut) just because and being able to relate that to God's grace
the opportunity to share my faith and answer tough questions with a friend
being able to encourage my dear friend
a very productive morning
getting Thomas to sleep. Unfortunately his skin and sleep are returning back to the way things were, but I'm blessed to have had 10 days of a miraculous change. It gives me hope.
a sparkling clean bathroom - now how can I find the balance between having a clean house and spending time with my kids?
hot chocolate and marshmallows for the kids in the middle of the summer
being able to see how a friend worked hard towards running a half marathon, training in 3 months, and the joy she had in her accomplishment!
our new couch came! Sounds materialistic, I know, but our house is slowly becoming our home.

When the moon hits your eye like a biga pizza pie . . .

2009-06-07T20:10:00.000-07:00

. . . that's amore!
I'm thankful for:

being able to be there for a friend in need
11 years since our first date in Venice, Italy
dancing in the kitchen with Jeff to That's Amore
our Sunday morning pancake breakfast tradition
enjoying lunch with our church family
a nice nap
Jeff being able to rest his back and not worry about having to drive today
Thomas enjoying his first time watching Baby Signing Times
playing tickle monster with the kids
a pretty good day overall

"Success in marriage does not come merely through finding the right mate, but . . .

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. . . through being the right mate." -Barnett R. Brickner
I'm thankful for:

going to Kohl's by myself this morning
saving money. I like saving money!
being lazy and letting my dishes pile up a bit
Clara whispering me awake after my nap - so sweet!
the Hahne's watching our children while we went out on a date (with Thomas, too, of course)
finding a couch and rug for our house
slowly getting our house a little bit more together
the kids having a great time at the Hahne's and playing so nicely together!
Thomas behaving like a champ, as always, while we dragged him all over to get a couch
enjoying a wonderful time together and feeling refreshed from the time together

"Madness need not be all breakdown. . .

2009-06-05T20:11:00.000-07:00

. . . It may also be break-through." -R.D. Laing, The Politics of Experience
I'm thankful for:

this strangely cool, cloudy day
happy squeaks coming from Thomas' bedroom this morning
handling discipline mostly with love and without anger
putting Thomas down for a nap without socks on his hands this morning
getting things done on "the list"
recognizing that the changes in Thomas are absolutely a miracle!
Jeff coming home tonight and not traveling at all next week!
Thomas eczema and skin worsening later in the day, only for the reminder of how great he's been and having hope for permanent change
Christian wanting to pray for "the red spots on Thomas' face to go away"
Jeff being able and available to help a friend load their moving truck

"People who do not understand themselves have a craving for understanding." -Wilhelm Stekel

2009-06-04T20:22:00.000-07:00

I'm thankful for:

seeing the end of a beautiful sunrise this morning
a cooler than usual day out in the desert
Thomas trying soy formula in his cereal with no noticeable problems
surviving the zoo in the heat today (cooler or not, it's still pretty dang hot!)
finding at least one animal to entertain us (orangatans). The rest were hiding in the shade.
the kids memory of the zoo as a great time even if it didn't seem they were having fun there
Christian being brave on the merry-go-round
Thomas eating a snow cone - finally something he can eat out! And he loved every bite!
enjoying some wrestle time with the kids
Thomas' love for his siblings - it is so sweet!

"Depressed? Of course we're all depressed.

2009-06-03T21:17:00.000-07:00

. . . We've been so quickly, violently, and irreconcilably plucked from nature, from physical labor, from kinship and village mentality, from every natural and primordial anti-depressant. The further society "progresses," the grander the scale of imbalance. Just as fluoride is put in water to prevent dental caries, we'll soon find government mandating Prozac in our water to prevent mental caries." -M. Robin D'Antan
I'm thankful for:

running 5k in 29 minutes this morning!
seeing quail, rabbits, jackrabbits and other little critters to start my day
making plans for the zoo tomorrow
getting some things done around here
the kids having some nice playtime together
cooking pork chops for the first time ever
3 out of 4 liking the pork chops
the kids silly antics in the pool tonight
being humbled. I never thought I'd have these issues and my pride has gotten in the way of me getting help. Now I have the opportunity to stop relying on myself to solve all my problems.
confidence that God is going to use these experiences not just to grow me but so that I may minister to other people having these same issues once I get through this.

In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins,

2009-06-02T20:16:00.001-07:00

. . . in accordance with the riches of God's grace -Ephesians 1:7
I'm thankful for:

getting to spend some time with Amanda, D', and their kids
trying a soy latte for the first time to see how Thomas handles it. Oh, Starbucks! How I have missed you!
Thomas pulling up to standing on Jack's train table. He's getting so big!
a long overdue talk with my friend Krista
phone calls with so many dear friends today
not losing my temper with the kids when they misbehaved so much while I was on the phone
3 kids playing boats together
Thomas eating so well lately
Jeff coming home and cleaning up the kitchen for me
the fact that I do regret when I lose my temper and seek forgiveness

"Some people regard discipline as a chore. . .

2009-06-01T21:01:00.001-07:00

. . . For me it is a kind of order that sets me free to fly." -Julie Andrews
I'm thankful for:

running 5k in under 30 minutes (about 1 1/2 minutes faster than the first time I ran 5k)
going to the store minus one child this morning
our leather couch, because I would bet it was easier to clean up poop off of that than a cloth couch
setting up my new Franklin Covey and getting a few things crossed off of the list
Christian's growing desire to read and write more
enjoying a conversation with the kids about classical music and the different emotions each song can invoke
Jeff being around for a good part of the week
trying a new recipe - not bad!
the lessons I'm learning in selflessness and flexibility
seeing a week of improvement with Thomas and even with his itchiness today seeing it can and will go away

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but . . .

2009-05-31T20:14:00.000-07:00

. . . only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. -Ephesians 4:29
I'm thankful for:

Thomas waking with happy noises and not screaming for me - the first time ever!
Thomas' first (it's really come through this time) new tooth
Josh's sermon really speaking to me this morning about how we are to have a different way of thinking that affects how we interact with others
that I was actually able to listen to and concentrate on a good part of the sermon
Clara getting to go on a date with Daddy
having a nice conversation with my Mom & Dad
making Orange Creme Shake with/for Christian
enjoying time with just the boys and how the dynamic changes when one of the kids are gone
how excited the kids were to share what happened in their day with each other
planning for the week ahead

"Weekends are a bit like rainbows;

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. . . they look good from a distance but disappear when you get up close to them." -John Shirley
I'm thankful for:

the weekend and not having to go it all on my own
Thomas' amazing week of sleep. I think we are turning a corner!
fresh air mowing the lawn
being able to laze around a bit and not feeling too guilty as my dishes pile high on the kitchen counters
ordering curtains for our sliding glass door - finally! And finding ones I like at a great deal on eBay
Christian attending Sam's birthday party at a bowling alley and having a blast!
Christian and Clara having fun their first time on a slip 'n slide
being able to eat with less restrictions
enjoying a nice glass of wine and homecooked leftovers
Clara returning to her big girl bed and hope that she does better staying in there from now on

"Independence"... [is] middle-class blasphemy. We are all . . .

2009-05-29T22:40:00.001-07:00

. . . dependent on one another, every soul of us on earth." -G.B. Shaw, Pygmalion, 1912
I'm thankful for:

feeling a lot better this morning
finally getting around to letting the kids paint the critters my sister sent and playing in moon sand
not getting very angry (there were a few minutes of serious grumps at the end) when looking at the mess from the moon sand
even hearing some happy squeals when I've been putting Thomas to bed (or when he's woken up) the last few days. That has never happened before!
Thomas successfully retrying carrots and oats with only a contact reaction to the carrots
finding a cool father's day gift for my dad at Etsy.com
my new Franklin Covey weekly planner arriving!
mmmmm! Clean sheets!
neighbors are moving in next door!
getting to meet neighbors at an ice cream party and seeing the space station fly overhead

"In the sick room, ten cents' worth of human understanding equals . . .

2009-05-28T20:59:00.000-07:00

. . . ten dollars' worth of medical science." -Martin H. Fischer
I'm thankful for:

the tylenol working to bring down my fever so I could function most of the day
Christian being helpful and kind for at least part of the day
Clara saying with utmost sympathy "I hope you feel betta Mommy"
more ways that God is convicting me to grow. Especially being a good example to my children and using my words for good no matter how I'm feeling
the Hahne's watching my kids while I went to see the Dr
the Dr seeing me even though I got lost on the way there and was 20 minutes late
getting on antibiotics - please God may it work quickly!
getting the kids to bed without throwing up. Thank goodness they can do so much for themselves now!
Jeff coming home and taking care of me
not every day being like this

" If there is any deficiency in food or exercise, the body will fall sick." -Hippocrates

2009-05-27T21:44:00.000-07:00

Please pray this mastitis goes away on its own. Jeff is gone tonight and tomorrow and my fever is increasing.
I'm thankful for:

having a totally ideal morning. Cooking, cleaning, playing, reading and most importantly - no grumpy mommy!
trying new foods for Thomas - little pieces of banana and strawberry
Thomas sleeping well this morning and this afternoon
Thomas not acting very itchy
everyone behaving better - particularly me
more ideas of things I'd like to do during the day like music time and art time
a plan of action for helping Thomas with his itching
only one night that Jeff will be out of town this week
a yummy dinner at the Hahne's tonight!
visits with old friends

"Don't worry that children never listen to you;

2009-05-26T20:45:00.000-07:00

worry that they are always watching you." -Robert Fulghum
I'm thankful for:

not getting angry or even in the least bit irritable when getting out of the house in a rush this morning
interesting theological questions I've been having lately with Christian and Clara in the car
better behavior from the C's today
Thomas having a good 9 months checkup today at his pediatrician's office - 9 MONTHS!!!
Thomas handling shots, bloodwork, and allergy testing as well as could be expected and recovering quickly
spending long overdue time with the Brower's
good news at the allergist that Thomas tested negative to several foods we thought were positives. Also, that having hives on his chin does not necessarily indicate an allergic reaction but rather a skin sensitivity so we can re-introduce all foods that are negative and slowly introduce foods that were mildly positive to see how he handles it
Jeff being home to help bathe and put the kids to bed
feeling refreshed after the long weekend and able to handle the norms of life with more ease
eating one of my favorite dinners tonight since I can now eat beans again!

"They fell, but o'er their glorious grave . . .

2009-05-25T21:25:00.000-07:00

. . . Floats free the banner of the cause they died to save." -Francis Marion Crawford
I'm thankful for:

the sacrifices made by the brave men and women, both past and present, in order to maintain living a blessed life in a free country. May our current and future administrations remember what and why we continue to fight for our freedom.
Thomas finally falling asleep at 5am
Jeff having an extra day off and being able to sleep until 7
finding a possible new cause of hives - gelatin (marshmallows, jello)
encouraging words from Melissa to clear my perspective
cooking some foods for the week
Jeff taking the older kids out for the whole morning
Thomas sweet and easy going demeanor when he's not itching and overly tired
enjoying delicious food and great company at the Harding's Memorial Day party
opportunities to teach our children about patience

"It behooves a father to be blameless if . . .

2009-05-24T20:35:00.001-07:00

. . . he expects his child to be." -Homer
I'm thankful for:

Thomas waking up early so we could squeeze in a trip to the store before the C's woke up
Christian sleeping until 7am & Clara not waking him up for once
the bit I could glean from the sermon this morning regarding hope for God to change me
finding more cereals I can eat
Christian's adoration of Thomas
Sunday afternoon naps!
Clara tickling Thomas and him nearly laughing
Thomas signing "more" for the first time
getting organized for our College ministry
Jeff taking the kids on a walk

The righteous man leads a blameless life;

2009-05-23T21:12:00.001-07:00

. . . blessed are his children after him. -Proverbs 20:7
I'm thankful for:

Jeff making a start on getting the garage in order
ordering a weekly planner in hopes of getting better organized
the growing independence of our children
enjoying a book I checked out from the library (Catch as Catch Can by Joseph Heller)
Thomas pulling up to standing on the couch
help picking up around the house today and help with the kids
unexpectedly getting to see Tom & Mary Kay for dinner
Clara and Christian's total adoration and excitement for their grandparents
not finding anything to buy for our house at Copenhagen today - at least we're saving money
wanting change - not being complacent in where I'm at as a mom

"He who is allowed to do as he likes will soon . . .

2009-05-22T19:39:00.000-07:00

. . . run his head into a brick wall out of sheer frustration." -Robert Musil, The Man without Qualities, 1930
I'm thankful for:

parenting books that can guide me in the right direction
a desire to get to the hearts of my children rather than train them to behave well out of fear
the joy the kids had at the rain, coming into my room this morning saying "Mom! There's going to be a rainbow!!"
going to the library and getting some books to read
laying Thomas down for a nap with minimal fussing and no socks on his hands (I don't think they're very effective any more - he can get even the tightest ones off within minutes)
reading books on the couch with the kids
Christian loving to play with Thomas
Thomas first time waving
playing games with the kids
Jeff coming home later tonight

"Ruin and recovery are both from within." -Epictetus

2009-05-21T20:57:00.000-07:00

I'm thankful for:

a good mood this morning in spite of too little sleep
working towards no back-talking and immediate obedience - being more aware of where I'm falling short
Clara being a little ray of sunshine with her cute and silly behavior, pistol though she is!
Christian's last day of school
Ms. Montoya and Ms. Price and the great preschool program Christian enjoyed
the nature around our home - coyotes, prairie dogs, roadrunners, rabbits - all seen just today!
Christian encouraging me not to be mad when I went to discipline him
Thomas exploring and enjoying himself so much during his usually fussy time
a cloudy, much cooler than normal day with even a bit of rain
Thomas first time with the C's in the bath

"The average man, who does not know what to do with his life,

2009-05-20T23:57:00.000-07:00

. . . wants another one which will last forever." -Anatole France
I'm thankful for:

going to bed earlier last night to try to take better care of myself
Clara's pullup was dry this morning!
handling Thomas' poop blowout with grace and humor
Thomas going to crawling from sitting for the first time
Christian sounding out and then spelling out words like Clara & Dog
Thomas eating peaches - real bites of peaches - by himself!
Christian's ok after Clara chucked a polar pack at his head
Clara sincerely remorseful for what she did
less fear and better tolerance today
Melissa Hahne coming over for a drink and great conversation after the kids were in bed

"Self-pity is . . .

2009-05-19T20:20:00.002-07:00

. . . a sinkhole from which no rescuing hand can drag you because you have chosen to sink." -Elizabeth Elliot
I'm thankful for:

secretly watching the kids playing outside through my bedroom window. I cherish their little antics when they are playing so well together.
bathtime relaxing Thomas to the point that he so nicely went to sleep on his own
working as a team to get in & out of Toys R Us in 10 minutes
the kids behaving pretty well when we went to the title agency to sign our refinancing paperwork - & refinancing our home at 5%!
being able to park in the garage - what a difference in car temperature!
Christian's friend Blake's birthday party at the splash pad
not even feeling sad one bit that I couldn't eat the cake
Jeff being home tonight. Having help is invaluable.
the realization that all the stuff I thought was happening this weekend is mostly next weekend. Phew!
working on a routine for our days to get more accomplished and enjoy our time together more.

"Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely . . .

2009-05-18T21:39:00.000-07:00

. . . to be normal." -Albert Camus
I'm thankful for:

a down the street neighbor (Brandy) setting up an ice-cream social for neighbors to meet
making one step closer to talking to someone professional about this or getting other help
a good nap
again for Melissa
kids playing nicely outside
a friend finding out she's pregnant! Hurray for new life!
the smell of good food cooking in my kitchen. That's right my kitchen!
winging it on a meal and it being a hit!
starting work on a summer schedule
Jeff's support

Dear God, I need your help, Lord.

2009-05-17T23:23:00.000-07:00

Please help me not to resent my children for their constant demands on my time. Help me to show them love even, and especially, when I'm correcting their behavior. Please give me wisdom to make the right decisions for my children, to not discipline in anger, and to keep a level head in all that I do. Help me, Lord, not to fear the breakdown I had on Friday and instead see it as a means to develop my character to be more like You. Help me not to want to run from that person or to run from my children.
I'm thankful for:

confirmation I need to be more consistent in discipline
silly Thomas antics like crawling under the coffee table glass
getting the house straightened for our college group coming over tonight
Jeff's ability to help me see the other side of the coin
Thomas falling asleep in the swing this afternoon
Melissa Hahne
our college friends coming over
playing games, watching a movie, and enjoying good conversation
Christian falling asleep immediately
a fresh start to a new week

"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. . .

2009-05-16T20:27:00.001-07:00

. . . I just wish that He didn't trust me so much." -Mother Teresa
I'm thankful for:

running 5 1/2 miles today in 53 minutes. I have never run past 4 miles before!
getting my Nike+ & iPod setup for running this morning - it made it easier
Thomas taking a good nap this morning - the first in a while now
Christian riding his bike and loving it!
Christian building and re-enacting the battle of Jericho with blocks
a wee little nap (I could have used a wee little more)
Thomas playing so nicely by himself
Jeff being here for Christian's and later Clara's total meltdown
http://deathisnotdying.com/ - it speaks for itself
a challenge to serve my family with joy

I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.

2009-05-15T18:17:00.000-07:00

For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. -Romans 7:18
I'm thankful for:

putting Clara back in the Pac-N-Play again. It meant 45 extra minutes of sleep for me & even more for everyone else!
follow up from the allergists office about the next steps for testing Thomas
the kids trying to help me calm down when I completely broke down today (hopefully the first and last total mommy meltdown)
friends to openly share with when I'm having a hard time
Thomas chasing a ball around the room
Christian encouraging & playing with Thomas
Jeff arriving earlier than usual from a trip
Jeff taking the C's out shopping and to eat
having quiet time just T and me
surviving this day

"A teacher affects eternity;

2009-05-14T21:09:00.000-07:00

. . . he can never tell where his influence stops." -Henry Brooks Adams
I'm thankful for:

the freelance logo job. I hope the client likes them; it was a fun exercise for me.
making eggs, bacon and toast for the kids and they GOBBLED IT UP!
Clara not getting seriously injured after Christian hit her between the eyes with a (plastic, thankfully) golf club
friends I can honestly tell I'm grumpy who try to talk me down
a powerful sermon addressing President Obama about abortion by John Piper
the kids napping right away since we had to go to Christian's school an hour early
hearing the testimony I sent to the Intentional Living program on air while I was driving to Christian's school today
Christian's great preschool program today!
being able to pray openly with a friend in need and then seeing the miracle God brought into her life
Jeff coming home tomorrow

"And if tonight my soul may find her peace in sleep, and sink in good oblivion, and in the morning . . .

2009-05-13T07:59:00.003-07:00

. . . wake like a new-opened flower then I have been dipped again in God, and new-created." -D.H. Lawrence
I'm thankful for:

seeing a shooting star last night - the 2nd time in my life outside of a meteor shower I saw in IL once
enjoying more time with the Hahne's this morning
a quiet lunch when the C's asked to eat their lunches outside
Thomas doing a "real" crawl today instead of the army crawl
baby Emily home and safe from the hospital
perspective
hope for positive change for the Bates family
the possibility of doing a classical education homeschool co-op
Jeff having a better day today
hope for being a better mom tomorrow

"Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.”

2009-05-12T22:10:00.000-07:00

I'm thankful for:

Melissa Hahne watching the C's so I could attend Sharing Day at bible study
all the marshmallows gone from our home. Ugh.
blessed by the sharing of other believers at sharing day
that God forgives
that after I prayed to God to keep me from talking nasty to my child and handle his behavior problems with wisdom, immediately upon dropping him off at school I heard a sermon of how each child is made uniquely by God and each child should be raised up uniquely according to their character
God's perfect timing
finding software for my dvd burner to finally get it working!!!
being invited back over to the Hahne's for dinner
an impromptu sleepover at the Hahne's
sorbet

"You don't get anything clean without . . .

2009-05-11T21:00:00.000-07:00

. . . getting something else dirty." -Cecil Baxter
I'm thankful for:

waking up early to see Jeff's alarm didn't go off
team work by the kids to rush out of the house at 5:50 this morning
being able to get Jeff his wallet just in time for him to make his flight
making rice krispee treats with the kids
checking out FlyLady and hope for better organization
putting a new sticker chart together
the kids saying "excuse me" to get my attention on the phone
having close friends to keep each other accountable
baths all around
my children being quick to forgive

Happy Mother's Day!

2009-05-10T20:58:00.000-07:00

Nothing like on-the-job training!
I'm thankful for:

my own mom and mother-in-law and how they've shaped our lives
a 4 mile run this morning
Jeff making our Sunday morning pancakes
the nice cards my kids made for me and the perfect card Jeff bought for me
the kids and Jeff taking me out to lunch and being able to eat off the menu
Sunday afternoon naps
Jeff helping to take on the burden of disciplining bad behavior
food from scratch - it has to be better for you, right?!
going to the store by myself, saving the trip with 3 littles tomorrow
making a double batch of Chicken Tortilla Soup. Mmmm!

. . . but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth consume, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:

2009-05-09T19:57:00.000-07:00

. . . for where thy treasure is, there will thy heart be also. -Matthew 6:20-21
I'm thankful for:

Jeff cleaning the shower
time alone mowing the lawn
Jeff spending individual time with the kids
Thomas allowing Jeff to put him down for a nap and going to sleep well
a quiet afternoon with sleeping children
playing Spiderman Memory with Clara
the fact that Jeff and I are usually on the same page as parents
a low key freelance job coming together
trying not to put too much value in our home and possessions
watching Jeff play "bowling" with my exercise ball and the kids as pins

"Babies are always more . . .

2009-05-08T21:00:00.000-07:00

. . . trouble than you thought - and more wonderful." -Charles Osgood
I'm thankful for:

Christian sleeping through Clara's noise early this morning (crying, whining, piano playing, door slamming, etc)
a fairly good trip to the store without any major blowups
Thomas taking a nap without socks on his hands
Thomas getting wherever he wants and is so much happier for it
Thomas acting, sleeping, smiling like a normal baby today!
Jeff knocking off work a little early today
a nice meal of salmon & asparagus
thoughtful friends who send articles about allergies
the calm (quiet evening) after the storm (big fight amidst the C's)
Friday nights and the promise of the weekend together

"Prayer does not change God, but . . .

2009-05-07T23:00:00.001-07:00

. . . it changes him who prays." -Søren Kierkegaard
I'm thankful for:

the kids waking super early and their grumpy attitudes. Normally this is the start of a bad day, but today it gave me the opportunity to read my bible and pray that instead of trying to control my children that God would help me to guide them.
dear friends who worry when they don't hear from me for a while
feeling refreshed from our time in Tucson
the house next to us is sold!
Christian's desire to create something for show and share
Thomas' happy demeanor in spite of the itchy hives. What is it today? Bananas?
the first real laugh from Thomas
having a pizza party picnic watching Mary Poppins
long phone calls with great friends. Thanks Melissa!
a low-key freelance gig, perfect for my limited free time

"What children need most are the essentials that grandparents provide in abundance. . .

2009-05-06T22:16:00.004-07:00

. . . They give unconditional love, kindness, patience, humor, comfort, lessons in life. And, most importantly, cookies." -Rudolph Giuliani
I'm thankful for:

having the opportunity to go to Tucson overnight at the last minute
being able to spend the whole week with Jeff
the love the kids have for Grandma & Grandpa
relatively good behavior from the C's in spite of a sleep deficit
marked improvement from Thomas in behavior and sleep
Mary Kay joining in on the tea party
Thomas making big strides (ha ha! pun intended) on the army crawl
having in-laws that I feel comfortable talking openly with
all 3 kids falling asleep fairly quickly on the car ride back from Tucson
a safe drive back from Tucson

"Mother love is the fuel that . . .

2009-05-05T19:20:00.000-07:00

. . . enables a normal human being to do the impossible." -Marion C. Garretty
I'm thankful for:

a great phone call with my sister last night and the closer we've come through the years
my bible study. I am so sad it is ending for the summer, but I have learned so much from the study of Genesis through Community Bible Study
a greater understanding of the Lord's timing and lessons in patience
a beautiful springtime here in the desert where we usually are sweltering long before now
Thomas sleeping at Bible Study - something he's never done before without being held
Thomas sleeping on his own this afternoon too! Maybe we're turning a corner!
Christian singing in front of bible study. Ok, well, standing there and looking a bit like Eeyore, but he was up there nonetheless.
Christian's preschool helper telling me how much he's grown and how he knows all the songs and motions for their upcoming show
Clara's desire to do things by herself and the determination she has to keep trying until she's figured it out
Thomas is like another child. So happy and rested. Squeals of joys resounding instead of screams of irritation.

It's so great to find that one special person . . .

2009-05-04T19:32:00.002-07:00

. . . you want to annoy for the rest of your life. -Rita Rudner
I'm thankful for:

getting to see a breathtaking Arizona sunrise this morning
running 3 miles to start my day
Jeff's trip to El Paso getting canceled this week!!
Thomas taking a 2 1/2 hour nap this afternoon and not having his usual screaming time tonight!
Clara putting Thomas' clothes away on her own initiative (is she really just 2 years old?!)
going to the store and bank by my self!
getting our sprinkler issue corrected without cost to us
Jeff playing with the kids outside
the balance Jeff gives me in all parts of life
being able to eat marshmallows to satisfy my sweet tooth!

Most of the food allergies die under garlic and onion. -Martin H. Fischer

2009-05-03T20:29:00.001-07:00

I'm thankful for:

having self control
becoming more self aware. It does help to talk myself down out of anger when I realize it is because I'm trying to control a situation that cannot be controlled
having a sense of humor that I can laugh at my children even if what they're doing is wrong
sitting near other noisy children at church so I can at least pretend my children were not the only loud ones
Christian's desire to spend time with his Grandma & Grandpa, & calling Grandma to talk to her about it
taking a much needed nap today
the kids bringing me flowers after their walk with Daddy
Thomas not scratching much today
hope that eliminating all legumes will make a huge difference for Thomas
making yummy chicken tortilla soup and enough to last me several meals

It will be interesting to see if the kids read this when they grow up.

2009-05-02T20:25:00.001-07:00

. . . It's not that I don't have a lot to be thankful for with each of them, but Thomas' allergies consume so much of my time right now that I cannot help but be thankful for each little piece of progress in his life. Praise God for the wisdom he has given me lately and I wait with anticipation to see how eliminating beans from my diet changes his quality of life.
I'm thankful for:

Isaac being here and the joy he brought to the kids
Thomas slept without crying, woke for a few minutes but then miraculously went back to sleep this morning's nap, (he usually sleeps about 30 minutes if at all)
celebrating new life at a baby shower this afternoon - not to mention having some time away just me and T
Thomas behavior was spectacular at the baby shower
preparing a nice dinner for company coming over
spending a great evening with Taun and Nick
celebrating Taun's birthday with her
Taun and Nick playing with the C's
no fussy time for Thomas tonight because he enjoyed the company of Taun and Nick so much
Thomas going to sleep all day with no crying!!!

"Any concern too small to be turned into a prayer is . . .

2009-05-01T21:21:00.001-07:00

. . . too small to be made into a burden." -Corrie ten Boom, Clippings from My Notebook
I'm thankful for:

recognizing that I have not been consistent in expecting immediate obedience, evidenced by the lack of cooperation from my children this morning to get out the door quickly
squeezing in a trip to the grocery store early this morning
not totally losing my mind in order to keep on our tight schedule
getting the hang of holding Clara over a public toilet with minimal touching (yuck) and holding Thomas at the same time without dropping either of them. Thank goodness for handicapped stalls that will hold all 4 of us!
Scott going out of his way to do a last minute synthetic oil change for us
Harmony taking pictures of Thomas
Thomas smiling nicely for pictures in spite of being super tired
Jennie keeping the kids for me while I took Thomas for his photos
I found a new one! Beans!!! I figured out the pattern and then put some refried beans on Thomas' skin. Wala! A hive! Hurray! One step closer to fixing this kid.
Jeff's coming home tonight and Isaac is spending the night. The kids are SOOO excited!

"One of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living.

2009-04-30T20:44:00.001-07:00

. . . We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon - instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today." -Dale Carnegie
I'm thankful for:

oh my goodness! Thomas finally slept during naptime without me rocking him, without waking after 30 minutes, without screaming and getting his mitts off. It is truly a miracle!
Shea being so kind as to move our light fixture for us because we asked but not because it was put in incorrectly
my precocious little girl! Clara made a loud noise today and said "that's obnoxious!"
mowing the lawn. Because it needed it, because it gave me some quiet time to myself, because I enjoyed the physical labor
putting toys in Thomas' crib with him. He didn't sleep this afternoon, but at least he didn't scream the whole time
Thomas being so happy in spite of not sleeping
recognizing before it happened that Christian was taking the golf club for the sole purpose of hitting Clara
the sheer joy on the kids faces when they were playing in the pool
good conversations with friends
the knowledge that this crazy life is just a season and we will get through it and it wont last forever

"It would seem that something which means poverty, disorder and violence every single day should be . . .

2009-04-29T20:41:00.000-07:00

. . . avoided entirely, but the desire to beget children is a natural urge." -Phyllis Diller
I'm thankful for:

this new ritual with the kids of a tea party outside in the morning
a reassuring conversation with Dr Mitra about Thomas' allergies
Christian giving Clara a hug when she was very upset after being disciplined. He told her "hugs always make me feel better"
Clara giving Thomas a pacifier to try to help him when he was crying
an impromptu play-date with Melissa, Christian and Mary
Melissa offering to keep Christian while I took Clara & Thomas home to nap. What a blessing!
Clara and Thomas finally falling asleep in the car and transferring easily back to bed
not losing my mind during the hour and half of crying from Thomas and screaming from the kids
Jeff taking the C's to the soccer park to play and fly a kite after dinner
Thomas enjoying rice crispies without choking on them

And we know that in all things God works for . . .

2009-04-28T22:31:00.000-07:00

. . . the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. -Romans 8:28
I'm thankful for:

finding Clara & Christian giggling & cuddling together this morning when I went to get them up
having enough time to empty and reload the dishwasher before leaving for our crazy day
flattering comments from the ladies at bible study
seeing one way God is using Thomas' allergy problems to show me that I cannot solve or research my way through a problem but instead must rely on His perfect plan
a little break at home while Christian is at school and the others are sleeping
Christian's preschool
Thomas not having to undergo allergy testing today, for his own sake even if it would have been nice to have some more ideas of what's going on
going out to dinner as a family - that has been a long time
Christian and Clara wanting me to put them to bed and snuggle every night. It can be frustrating but it's nice to know how much they care.
Jeff helping Thomas to go to sleep tonight

"When the head aches,

2009-04-27T19:59:00.000-07:00

. . . all the body is worse." -English Proverb
I'm thankful for:

Thomas sleeping until 5:00am; I was not optimistic of him sleeping well considering the way he looked last night
overhearing Christian giving Clara a hug on the couch and telling her he loves her
getting an appointment with an allergist for tomorrow afternoon. I'm hopeful the testing will reveal more reasons why he's been breaking out in hives so much
GREAT news for my dear friend and the court ruling in their favor
Thomas taking a good 2nd nap. I know this is repetitive but it has been such a problem and the poor little guy so needs his sleep!
for remembering that even though I have a nasty headache today there used to be a time when I had them several times a week instead of several times a year
Thomas kissing Clara and Christian today
seeing my children growing and changing in all ways. This gives me reassurance that they will outgrow their "issues".
the combination of Benadryl and fresh air helping Thomas to not scratch
Clara encouraging Christian to be brave while getting his haircut tonight . . . and he was!

"Sleep is the golden chain that ties . . .

2009-04-26T23:25:00.004-07:00

. . . health and our bodies together." -Thomas Dekker
I'm thankful for:

surviving a very tough, sleepless night without feeling grumpy or completely out of whack and Jeff's help in trying to keep all the kids in bed or back to bed
pancake/rice crispies breakfast to celebrate the Lord's day today
sharing our day with Uncle Chad and Aunt Laurel
the turkey chili I made the other day so I could eat lunch without feeling burdened with figuring out what to eat
getting the big blind hung in our bedroom
the kids adoring their aunts, uncles, grandparents and cousins so much
a delicious Mexican meal at the Brower house filled with things I can eat
playing Nertz! What a joy it is to play with the Wodrich/Brower and, this time, Culver family
the personal sacrifice Jeff made allowing me to stay and play Nertz, while knowing that he would have to stay up extra late tonight to get his work done
successfully transferring all 3 sleeping children from car to bed without waking any of them

"The informality of family life is . . .

2009-04-25T20:42:00.004-07:00

. . . a blessed condition that allows us to become our best while looking our worst." -Marge Kennedy
I'm thankful for:

the kids playing so nice together more often than not lately
more tea time play with the kids
Thomas acting fairly well in spite of an increase in hives the last several days
this amazing late April weather for Phoenix! This must be the first time I've ever had windows open this late in the year.
the document my dad sent on Greek Easter. Very interesting and nostalgic. I'm glad I took the time to read it somewhat close to Easter.
Clara's spontaneous singing and Thomas chiming in with her. So very sweet!
Jeff getting some work done in the garage
Clara and Thomas helping me "cook" in the kitchen
Wodrich family get-togethers!
Uncle Chad and Aunt Laurel coming to visit

"Vitality shows in not only the ability to . . .

2009-04-24T19:45:00.001-07:00

. . . persist but the ability to start over." F. Scott Fitzgerald
I'm thankful for:

having a good week and a half of sleep at night without Thomas waking up!
getting 6 loads of laundry folded and finished
taking a break from chores and sitting down to a tea party with the kids
Thomas playing so nicely by himself most of the time
each day is a do-over of the other one. Today I am anxious for tomorrow's do-over.
Christian's incredible golf swing and interest in sports
Clara trying to clean up after herself after her accident
snuggling with Christian at naptime and both of us catching a little nap
catching up on emails and bills because I stayed focused!
my mom

I'm determined to stop living vicariously, feeling wistful of others lives, and instead . . .

2009-04-23T20:23:00.000-07:00

. . . to spend more time living my life to the fullest.
I'm thankful for:

the kids having so much fun playing tea party
the first good morning nap for Thomas in a long time that did not involve a lot of screaming
a smoothly running morning
making turkey chili for me to eat over the course of several meals. Ahhh, to not have to worry about it each day!
that the kids go to time out on their own usually since it allows me to calm down before addressing them and the issue
taco night - the kids love making their tacos!
a good review at Christian's first parent/teacher conference
Thomas' skin looking so great without using the steroid creams and in spite of having some hives the last few days
getting some progress made on some freelance work
a desire to stop living vicariously through others and instead face my own life. Now, to put that into practice. Feels harder than it sounds.

"I am convinced that life is . . .

2009-04-22T23:38:00.001-07:00

. . . 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.” -Charles R. Swindoll

I'm thankful for:

all my FaceBook friends moral support w/cooking
Thomas falling asleep this afternoon. If we could just get his mornings worked out now.
Clara staying in her bed the last 2 nights and 3 naps without getting out at all
Courtney coming to visit
the kids cooperating (for the most part) with allowing me to clean up a bit
Thomas enjoying the older kids so much!
Christian not getting real hurt when hit with the golf club
playing wrestle, tickle & chase with the kids
bedtime for the kids
the delight of good company tonight

"Nothing would be more tiresome than eating and drinking if . . .

2009-04-21T19:54:00.000-07:00

. . . God had not made them a pleasure as well as a necessity." -Voltaire
I'm thankful for:

Clara staying in her big girl bed last night
getting my bible study finished before I left this morning
my bible study. I feel so grounded there!
wisdom to know that Clara's accidents the last few days may be because of a urinary tract infection
Christian asking Clara to play with him "forever"
my friend Shannon liking one of the designs I did
making a great meal - my body was craving something healthy, even if I was the only one who appreciated it
Jeff playing with the kids and the little pool in the backyard
preparing for company
Jeff being home and his help he gives when he's here

“If I discover within myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy,

2009-04-20T22:25:00.000-07:00

. . . the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world” -C.S. Lewis
I'm thankful for:

a great run this morning even though I didn't want to get out of bed
Thomas' skin looking so nice this morning
seeing hot air balloons for the first time from our new house
Christian saying he believes in God and believes that Jesus is God's son at breakfast
Christian and Clara playing Tea Party together outside
Shea agreeing to move our light fixture in our kitchen for us even though it was installed correctly according to their specs
Christian putting his hand on me and saying "I'm going to say a prayer to God for Thomas" during Thomas crazy hour of screaming
Christian wanting to put in a Baby Einstein movie to help calm Thomas down - and it worked!
Thomas being without socks or SkidPants and he barely scratched his legs
getting to go out by myself to see my Aunt Esther, eat french fries and grocery shop by myself

"People who say they sleep like a baby . . .

2009-04-19T20:50:00.002-07:00

. . . usually don't have one." -Leo J. Burke
I'm thankful for:

Thomas falling asleep last night without my intervention, even if it took a really long time, he did it on his own!
Thomas' hive outbreak today reminding me that he has been doing a lot better lately and to stay diligent in eating right and watching him closely.
working more on my meal plans and help from others to put it together
Clara's nice long nap today
making plans for trip out of work to escape our summer heat
my friend Courtney coming to visit! Yay!
the blessing of having Jeff in town this weekend - and he hung some of our new blinds!!!
Jeff's desire to be with us even if he has to be gone often
being able to help someone else suffering from the consequences of being a perfectionist. It's such a blessing to be able to help and at the same time become self aware and work towards solving my own issues.
Thomas went to sleep tonight without crying at all! With the way things have been going lately this is seriously a miracle.

"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than . . .

2009-04-18T20:00:00.001-07:00

. . . to speak out and remove all doubt." -Abraham Lincoln
I'm thankful for:

Jeff being home
Jeff taking the C's out to run errands and get lunch
Thomas sleeping well for several nights in a row, even if naps aren't going so hot
working on some designs
our blinds finally came in!!! Just in time for the heat!
the fact that this crazy diet has allowed me to expand my picky pallet. I might even say I'm not very picky anymore.
biting my tongue on an irritation rather than expressing it and starting an argument that would do nothing. Oh, that can be so hard!
walking away
a room to go to for solitude
a frustrating day. It reminds me that my usual days aren't so bad.

"Babies are always . . .

2009-04-17T20:45:00.000-07:00

. . . more trouble than you thought - and more wonderful." -Charles Osgood
I'm thankful for:

getting some cleaning done around the house and spending quality time with the kids
Thomas finally going to sleep this morning
a great email from an old friend to refocus and get perspective on parenting
limiting my online time today
Thomas falling asleep this afternoon without crying or needing me to rock him
Christian remembering S+H=sh sound and C+K=single k sound
starting reading The Chronicles of Narnia with the kids
Christian wanting me to read the 2nd chapter of Chronicles after I'd finished the first
Jeff coming home tonight
Clara wanting to give me a hug when I was sad about Thomas 1 1/2 of nonstop screaming. It was so sweet and did help to cheer me up a bit.

"There was a never a child so lovely . . .

2009-04-16T19:26:00.001-07:00

. . . but his mother was glad to get him to sleep." -Ralph Waldo Emerson
I'm thankful for:

waking to a chilly house one last time this season
another good night of sleep for Thomas, unmedicated
big sloppy wet kisses from Thomas
a great time with our friends the Hahnes
Christian peddling and having such a good time on the tricycle with Christian H.
a sweet mom of one of Christian's classmates who made me a nursing coverup
Clara's potty accident because it motivated me to bathe my children
the privilege of being able to pray for my dear friend and the hope that we will see an end to her struggles soon
getting the kids to bed early - please let them get more sleep tonight!
Thomas sweet demeanor, because his situation would be so much more challenging if he were fussier than he already is

"A child is a curly dimpled lunatic." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

2009-04-15T20:23:00.000-07:00

I'm thankful for:

3 days in a row of exercise and 3 nights in a row of Thomas sleeping well (last night without medication)
how funny our little children are (Clara came out of timeout naked today. ??!?!?!)
Jeff being home a few days of the last several weeks and next one, too!
working more on menu planning. For those who cook, this is no big deal, but for me this is a HUGE deal!
seeing how God is using a bad decision for some good involving someone I care about
a reminder of how precious our eyesight is after Christian thought it would be a good idea to use the squirty part of the soap dispenser as a magnifying glass
Thomas having a great sleep day and a happy boy because of it!
everyone working as a team at the grocery store and Pei Wei to go fast, stay close, hold hands and not throw fits
Christian & Clara performing a "show" tonight for the first time (of probably many), complete with "ladies & gentlemen, boys & girls"
enjoying some snuggle time with the kids at bedtime

"The great danger for family life, in the midst of . . .

2009-04-14T19:56:00.000-07:00

. . . any society whose idols are pleasure, comfort and independence, lies in the fact that people close their hearts and become selfish." -Pope John Paul II
I'm thankful for:

another great run today and pushing myself to keep going after I felt ready to quit
Christian's attitude staying better with less outbursts for the last several days
Clara being a good girl at bible study
a desire to allow others to enjoy the bible study luncheons since I cannot eat. Kind of funny how God works. I selfishly never wanted to miss the luncheons and He has shown me how I can bless others instead.
working on some meal planning so we can all eat healthier!
getting Thomas to stop crying after an hour of scratching and crying
Jeff taking the kids out for pizza and leaving me with a quiet house
Thomas falling asleep in my lap after not napping all day. I just pray he sleeps tonight.
more cool days ahead - this is an unbelievable springtime in Arizona
a desire to challenge my heart, grow and improve myself in every way

"Honest criticism is hard to take,

2009-04-13T19:21:00.000-07:00

. . . particularly from a relative, a friend, an acquaintance or a stranger." -Franklin P. Jones
I'm thankful for:

constructive criticism and a desire to work towards making things better
getting up early to go for a run (the first in 6 months!) and seeing a beautiful Arizona sunrise
hearing happy chatter from Thomas before I went to get him up this morning
Christian and Clara playing so nice together
limiting my time on the computer and getting more done/spending more time with the kids
some great playtimes with the kids
making it through keeping the kids quiet for Jeff to have an important phone call. That was a tough one!
reading time with Christian and patience when he didn't get sounding out sh
Christian's desire to know more about Jesus dieing on the cross and what that means
Jeff playing with the kids after dinner and helping to get them ready for bed

Christos Anesti!

2009-04-12T19:58:00.000-07:00

Alithos Anesti! (He has risen, indeed!)
I'm thankful for:

the real reason for celebrating this day - Christ's resurrection!
the delightful squeals of our children hunting for eggs and baskets
that Mom and Dad happened to be with Ann Marie when Kramer died today
Thomas seeming relatively unaffected in spite of my cheating and eating some malted milk balls - but not an excuse to do that again
planning and preparing a real meal! I need to do this more often.
remembering that this holiday is not about me but instead it's about the reason for the celebration.
Jeff decorating crosses and playing with the kids
Christian running to his room to calm himself down before having an outburst
Christian coaching Clara to say "He has risen indeed" after he said "Christ has risen"
some revelations that even though I'm doing a lot better I have a long way to go. It's sad when I feel like I'm 85% better but then am told that I'm "angry all the time" - and this from the man who sees me least angry of all. More reasons to look to God for help.